A nice poem I found.

When I say, "I am a Christian," I'm not shouting, "I've been saved!"
I'm whispering, "I get lost! That's why I chose this way"

When I say, "I am a Christian," I don't speak with human pride
I'm confessing that I stumble-needing God to be my guide

When I say, "I am a Christian," I'm not trying to be strong
I'm professing that I'm weak and pray for strength to carry on

When I say, "I am a Christian," I'm not bragging of success
I'm admitting that I've failed and cannot ever pay the debt

When I say, "I am a Christian," I don't think I know it all
I submit to my confusion asking humbly to be taught

When I say, "I am a Christian," I'm not claiming to be perfect
My flaws are far too visible but God believes I'm worth it

When I say, "I am a Christian," I still feel the sting of pain
I have my share of heartache which is why I seek His name

When I say, "I am a Christian," I do not wish to judge
I have no authority--I only know I'm loved


Copyright 1988 Carol Wimmer

This poem over the years has been incorrectly attributed to Maya Angelou but was really written by Carol Wimmer (www.carolwimmer.com)

Song of the day.

I am still awake at this time of the night. Why? I really don't know either. Anyway, I finally found the person who sang this song "Mercy". Her name is Duffy and saw her on Jay Leno tonight. I've heard the song before and fell in love with it but did not know who the artiste behind the voice is. Very reminiscent of Amy Winehouse whom I also love despite her craziness.



Oh. and I have a second song of the day. Chrisette Michele, very soulful and beautiful singer. I do not know why she is not popular. My cousin introduced me to her sound some time back and she is just wonderful and her voice is soooo much better than a lot of the slutty wannabes out there.

She has a song that is sung from a daughter to her father called "Your Joy" that I love as well, but the one here is "If I have my way" which is my fave.

On or before Wednesday!

Whatever happens, this baby will be born before the month of April is over. Yay!!!
I went in today and was scheduled for a medical induction for Wednesday afternoon (April 30). They tried to schedule me for tomorrow (Tuesday) but they were unable to squeeze me in.

So because of hospital logistics, I still have to go tomorrow for an ultrasound and to check the amniotic fluid levels before inducing on Wednesday because I'm at 41 weeks. If they think that anything is wrong, I will either have an emergency induction or emergency C-section. So let's pray it does not come to that.

What I would love is to just go into labour on my own sometime today. I'm walking around 5cm dilated and 70% effaced as of this morning! Why isn't this baby here I wonder?? Just trying not to worry that something is wrong.

Pray for me

Yes. I want to have this baby tonight. I'm waiting on my miracle. Hubby and I said that considering how long she has been in there, she had better come out cute as a button and potty trained. hehehe. if only.... talking about the potty trained part of course. I know she will be cute as a button :)

Who invented these?

One day, someone woke up and thought it would be a brilliant idea to invent this shopping cart that children will love. Well, thank God for that person thinking about the children but were they thinking about the parents??

First of all, those things are impossible to maneuver, making a regular trip to the grocery store longer than it ought to be. Second, is that the space for groceries is so small that you have to get a second regular cart to fit in all the things that you want to buy. Now how is that convenient when you are the only adult present? Then I start to think about the germs that other children have left behind in those carts. I know. I have problems.

Gosh!!! Anyhoo. I guess it is one of those things that we do just to get our kids to shut up so we can shop in peace. Except for those times when the child decides that he/she is tired of sitting in the car and they want out, leaving you pushing it around without a passenger and feeling utterly ridiculous.

Little Miss Safiya

My dear child is beginning to make a habit of getting up in the middle of the night and continuing to sleep on the floor. The other day we found her in the doorway of her bedroom asleep. Nowhere near the bed. She must have been trying to come to our room and fell asleep before she could get there.

We were are the park yesterday and she was following this little boy around like a tail. I've come to the conclusion that she either thinks that she is a boy or she just likes to play with boys. Everytime we go for storytime at the library on Friday mornings, she is the little girl running around with the rambunctious boys while the girls sit quietly listening to the story. How embarassing (for me that is). In the church nursery, she plays with only the boys too!! My little tomboy :) Maybe this next one will be a lady.

In need of Divine Intervention.

I have officially tried it all besides strangling the midwife and threatening to end her life if she does not induce me.

First of all, I thought the power of positive thinking and meditation exercises would communicate to this baby that it is safe out here and she can come out. That did not work.

Then, I decided to get more active and take long intense walks to somehow jiggle the baby out of there. That has not worked either.

I tried other extracurricular activities :)
did not work

I ate lots and lots of spicy foods. Nothing.

The midwife stripped my cervical membranes to hurry things along. So far, the baby does not seem to understand that it means she can come out.

So, today I decided to try a nasty castor oil and juice concoction that is supposed to induce labour. All that has managed to do is send me to the toilet where I proceeded to stink up the whole place. Yes, I know that castor oil has a laxative effect but I figured I would try it anyway. I did not take as much as suggested because I could not stomach the stuff and was afraid it would cause some serious diarhhoea. Maybe that's why it did not work (I did not take enough).

Well, now it is totally up to Jesus. I'm just going to sit here and wait for divine intervention.

you're still here???

I am beginning to tire of hearing that question. Someone must have jinxed me. I mean how else can I explain why I am still pregnant? I just miss the non-pregnant times right now.

1. I miss being able to sleep on my stomach.

2. I miss my belly button.

3. I miss having a glass of cabernet sauvignon every now and then.

4. I miss being able to bend and touch my toes.

5. I miss my coffee addiction.


5 Things I will miss after having this baby

1. I will miss being able to eat as much food as I please and be able to say, "I am eating for two"!

2. I will miss being able to send hubby to get what I need because "my back hurts and I need some rest". hehehehe

3. I will miss strangers rushing to open doors for me and treating me like a fragile, valuable artifact.

4. I will miss feeling my baby move inside of me.

5. I will miss my big booty (assuming it goes back to it's normal size after baby is born!) I think hubby will miss it too ... wink.

Due date!!!

Today is my due date!! yes it is and I am still here and still pregnant. Lawd have mercy!
Well I did have my appointment today and the midwife stripped my membranes to help things along. Soooooo, I hope this baby still comes out today or at least tomorrow. If I do not go into labour on my own, I will be induced next week.
Keeping my fingers crossed.
Pray for me people :)

Please come baby!!!

Oh my gosh I am so so tired!! I want this baby out of me today! Had to call this morning becuase my heart suddenly started pounding hard and fast and I was very lightheaded. It was scary. I thought me and baby were in danger and was already having visions of an emergency C-section!!! (I am deathly afraid of having a Caesarian section). The midwife just told me to basically stay off my feet all day and take it easy.
Seriously, this child needs to come out so she can meet her parents and big sister and give me some relief from the heart burn and the leg pains and the general hormonal madness!
Well, I am just sitting here taking it easy today. That means hubby can cook tonight!! Yay! Or he can just go out and buy me something spicy from Taco Bell or Chinese take out :)

Decided to share another pregnant photo. I thought it would be nice to spare you the agony of seeing my stretch marks so I artistically covered them up! All the manufacturers of cocoa butter lotion have made so much money off of me in my quest to prevent belly stretch marks. However, the cocoa butter did not do jack for me. I guess some of us are just destined to carry the battle scars of pregnancy on our bellies forever. How lucky I must be!!!! I could really just strangle all the women who never get stretch marks. So if you are one of them, do not introduce yourself to me if you love your life. :)

Wedding jitters??

Our good friends Erica and Caspar are getting married at the end of June and I am part of the bridal party!! That gives me only two months to lose all the baby weight so I can look hottt!!!
Okay who am I kidding???. There is no way I could lose all the baby weight in two weeks. I'm no Heidi Klum with her sexy post-baby bod. I will just have to rock my big booty in a bridesmaid dress :) I am actually looking forward to it.
yay for weddings.

My little model

This picture was taken when Safiya was in a rather somber mood. However it came out looking like a perfect model pout and pose. Hmmm maybe I should send it to Vogue fashion magazine to see if she has a future in the industry! ha

Sleeping Beauty

We were able to successfully move Safiya from her crib to a toddler bed some time ago and she has been doing pretty well in the new bed. Although sometimes she wakes up in the middle of the night, walks to our bedroom and climbs into bed with us. Well this night, she must have woken up in the middle of the night and continued her slumber on the floor which is where her dad found her in the morning and took this picture!

Giving in

SO I figured "what the heck"? feel free to see a picture of my basketball. The baby is cozy in there and still does not want to come out. I thought I was finally going into labour yesterday but it was a false alarm :(

Getting impatient

Goodness, you do not even want to know about the size of my belly. No pictures because i feel like a cow. I am getting impatient and ready to have this child out of me. My midwife thought I would be quite early but this baby is on her own schedule and does not care about medical predictions.
I have never craved pain this much in my entire life. I sit and bid the labour contractions come upon me. Is this normal? Anyhoo. We can do nothing but wait. In the meantime, I have been walking everywhere to induce labour :)

Loving Spring!

The snow is finally gone for good I hope. I just love spring with all the wet soil and green grass and beautiful flowers. So why is winter necessary again? I would not mind if that season was totally scrapped but I guess there are some people out there who really do enjoy the snow for some strange reason. ha ha
Safiya is loving the weather too and she wants to be outside all the time. Even when it is raining!!! Small wonder the child has a runny nose now. But she'll live.


Well I am still here and still pregnant. The countdown has begun. Been having some contractions but nothing major yet. A little scared about going through labour once more but I am sure that all will be well. Anyhoo, I think I am ready and the baby should feel free to come any day!

I'm back!!

So after extensive hardware surgery, our computer is back! May I hear a "Hallelujah"!
It's been crazy without the computer and the internet and I think I was cured of my internet addiction during that period so some good came out of it I guess.

Anyway, I am still very pregnant and waiting for my new baby to be here any day now really. I am full term (38wks) and just cruising along with all my bodily aches and pains. It's crazy what we women do having kids and all. If men were the child bearers, I think the human race might be in danger of extinction today :)

Well today has been a busy day getting all the baby stuff together and doing some spring cleaning.

By the way, I had a surprise baby shower on Thursday and it was great. What was especially nice is the fact that we will not have to buy diapers for the new baby for a while. Yay!